The word evokes mixed emotions – some times motivating, often repulsive. It makes me feel inadequate in what I do, because I lack that – Discipline.
What is Discipline but a routine, a ritual that turns into a habit. How can a routine turn into a habit? By sticking to it without fail of course. We all understand the importance of Discipline, yet I am sure most of us struggle with it. As we jump from one activity to another, from one temptation to another, as our mind convinces us that a little bit of distraction will not hurt, we will soon get back to the activity after this one little thing once more, even though, we know that this one little thing, whatever it is, is not going to yield any great results, we succumb to it. Why? We lack discipline, stick-ability to one task until it finishes, even starting one task as set out at the set hour.
I am a classic example of this lack of disipline. I make promises to myself – ‘No more TV from today, instead I will use that time to write and read’ – a grand promise that I make to myself and ask for help from Universe in making me stick to that plan. Come the hour, after dinner, settle in the couch – “Oh! just this half hour, just this show and I will get back to it” – an empty promise to myself and 2 and a half hours later, I drag myself away from the couch into bed, tired and disgusted at my own lack of Self-Discipline, making the same promise to myself – ‘Tomorrow, Fresh start’, new promise, even write in my journal – ‘I will not……….’
And deep down from a corner of my heart or mind, my ego, I am not sure where it exactly resides, silently but surely whispers saying “Ohhhhhhhhh Yesssssss, you will? you watch…….”
Is that weakness of will, knowingly succumbing to the next temptation that keeps me away from doing the most important thing? Why do I wait until the ‘important’ becomes ‘urgent’ before I act? I know in every pour of my body that Discipline will not only achieve results, most importantly Discipline makes me feel soooooooooooo much better about myself. Discipline puts purpose back in life and yet…….
So may be I need to trick myself saying this just next ‘one thing’, ‘one sentence’, ‘one task’, whatever, just keep attention on this just one next thing, just like I tell myself ‘this one next show’, ‘half hour’, ‘I am tired, therefore I get to sit’ etc.
Whether it is dusting one tiny corner, clearing one small cupboard, or writing a small paragraph or paying just one bill – I need to trick myself to doing this just ‘one next thing’. We all know in doing just that one little act, we start the ball rolling. There is heaps written about the power of starting with one tiny action – I am not adding anything new here.
I cant remember who said this, but if we make a list of 3 most important things to do each day, we will accomplish heaps Somebody else said instead of making ‘to do’ lists, change it to read “I get to do…” There are books and blogs written on ‘how to’ approach our lives with discipline. We all know that, yet I am very disciplined in failing to be disciplined.
Reading about it, finding out the next technique on how to be disciplined, these are only temporary measures. Lasting and sustaining discipline has to originate from the Self and therefore it is called ‘Self-Discipline’. Self Discipline is empowering and reinforcing. My mind needs tricking and convincing that what I am doing next is not work but leisure, the only thing is that it needs to be engaged in that activity. The mind will bave to be full not less ie., I have to be ‘mindful’ in my next activity, not ‘mindless’ and my conditioning tells me that being ‘mindful’ is tedious and being ‘mindless’ is fun. I need to turn that perception around and convince my mind that mindless activities also require mindfulness.
It is ironic that I have to convince my mind which is a ‘bundle of thoughts’, with another ‘bundle of thoughts’ to override the original bundle. What if I don’t engage either of those bundles and just pick up the next thing to do as easily as I pick up the remote control?
The power is in me – I am the master of my mind, I can dictate to it and that ‘I’ gets stronger by the day if it stops listening to the mind. The ‘Self’ in Self-Discipline is that ‘I’. So, Self-Discipline means ‘I’ discipline ‘i’ and bring it in alignment.
We need to resort to all sorts of tricky business to bring the ‘i’ in line with ‘I’, because in the end the ‘i’ will have to merge with the ‘I’.
May be instead of saying the words “Self-Discipline”, “I-Discipline” might work.
What do you think? Do you have problems with Self-Discipline? What can you accomplish if you were disciplined in your approach?
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Until next time – be discplined!!!
With Love and Respect